Sadly, I wrote down my verse of the week and walked off and forgot it :( What good is that?? So, last night I was reminded by the sweet girls who are holding me up. I reread the verse and realized. There was a reason God gives us his Word. We need to unwrap it, learn it, commit it to memory so we can live victoriously.
So, I've never mapped out a verse before. What a great way to really take it home to the heart. I can read this verse in the Bible and walk away and not apply it in my life. But, then, why read the Bible? Seriously, I can think of more exciting things to read! I want to draw closer to The Lord. I want to know who he is and how he wants me to live.
Up until now, I have always just done this whole diet thing on my own. Sure, I ask girlfriends to do it with me. I read books and go to meetings. I've taken medications. I've even prayed a little about it. A little, because I wasn't really sure I wanted God to mess with me here. But, I knew it was time to release this to him. (I didn't want it ripped from my tightly gripped hands)
So, casting, I'm doing! I am, throwing this at God. He's okay with that. He has great big hands and can hold onto this that I cast at him. I am getting rid and giving away my past failures, anxieties and concerns about my weight. Why? Because he cares for me - affectionately and he watches over me! What's my part? I am to be self-controlled. Oh wait, there's a fruit of the Spirit there! So, not only am I working through this whole weight issue (heart issue), He is working out one of the fruits of the Spirit in my life. Bonus! Well-balanced. We all need to be. Alert. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I JUST PUT SOMETHING IN MY MOUTH BECAUSE IT WAS THERE??? Was I hungry? Did I really want it? Was I mindful? No, sadly, I am carrying this extra weight because I lacked self-control and attentiveness to what I ate. I want to be mindful, vigilant and cautious in what I take in - food, media, conversations... This is what God wants from me. And, I want more of God.
Not that I compromised this week, but I was a little more laid back (less alert) because I was thinking to myself, I've got this! I have tons of motivation and momentum going right now. Yet, as I slow down and reread this verse below, I realize that even today I could throw in the towel of defeat if I don't allow God to change my heart on this issue. Finding, this has to be about my relationship with God and not my relationship with food and exercise. I will cast my concerns to the One who cares and walk in self-restraint (with lots of prayer) and stay mindful of what we are working on here.
Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. Be self-controlled and alert. 1 Peter 5:7-8a
I will be on my guard, not asleep like the others. Staying alert & clearheaded. Paraphrased from 1 Thessalonians 5:6
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Would it have been a good choice to have eaten that corn dog yesterday & nothing else because that would have been my calorie allotment? Would I have been sad after and hungry only a short time later? Would I have moved my cravings along to healthier? I have always been a Weight Watcher girl - for oh, about 20 years I'd say! I am one of the obese ones :( Not that they don't have a GREAT program that is a healthy program, IF you follow it the way you are suppose to. Eating your veggies & fruit servings and protein and limiting sugars and alcohol. Well, because I have "circled this mountain long enough!" I am reading Made to Crave by Lysa TerKeurst and praying for a life change. I hear God saying, "now turn north, Amy!" So, the corn dog was definitely permissible. I had plenty of calories for it. But, then where would I find the calories for my veggies, my milk, my sustaining foods. And, I'm guessing had I eaten that corn dog, I might just want another one today! Craving chick peas on my sugar snap peas today. Moving on. Learning to crave God over those measly corn dogs! :-) #CravingGod “Everything is permissible,” but not everything is helpful. “Everything is permissible,” but not everything builds up. (1 Corinthians 10:23 HCSB) Joining Proverbs 31 Online Bible Study, Made To Crave, because I know I need to make a change. I know in my heart this has always been a struggle for me, yet I have never asked God to be what I have asked food to be. My comforter, my warm. & cozy, my everything. I want to draw close to God and give Him this "issue" like I have never done before. Weight loss for me was always about the diet, the Weight Watchers meetings, and even the very foods I ate. I am asking God to help me not be about the food this time , but about building relationship with Him. Changing my heart as I go and replacing old bad behaviors with His holiness. Anyone want to join me on this journey? Prayer support also appreciated! Meet you on the other side of this better equipped & closer to God! |
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